Caught up with Sherbear today and what else can we ever talk about when we meet up? :P

A woman's heart is very much like a deep ocean of secrets. While this means it looks tranquil on the surface, yet hides a neverending depth of emotions, it basically also means it's a vast area of opportunity. Why look at a woman's heart negatively? You'll never know what you'll find, until you wade into the centre of it. And when you're drowning in the ocean of emotions, why should you want to escape it?

Whereas, most men's hearts are like a puddle of water. You get what you see, and if things get too rough, things get too heated, his heart evaporates along with your relationship.

Why should I always be on the losing end? It's only recently I realised I'm never on the losing side.

The selfish love of my God has kept me with Him. And He's not ready to let go of me just yet. He has also looked after me and, it's not that I'm unlucky in love, it's just that He's looking for the perfect person to take over His love.

“The difference between killing one man and killing a thousand just doesn’t seem as salient to us as it should. And, as Glover observes, in many cases we will find the former far more disturbing. Three million souls can be starved and murdered in the Congo, and our Argus-eyed media scarcely blink. When a princess dies in a car accident, however, a quarter of the earth’s population falls prostrate with grief. Perhaps we are unable to feel what we must feel in order to change the world”

Sam Harris - The End of Faith (Pg 196-197)

**EDIT Wed Dec 9 00:28:16 UTC 2009 **

The notification system has been fixed in the new release... we are currently processing the queue, which is upwards of 12m jobs... please bear with us while our workers chew through this large queue and get your notification / emails out. Some may come more quickly than others due to weights on the notifications themselves, but we are hoping in the next 24 hours to have all the queues cleared and all notifications delivered that had been queued up over the past few days.

Again I apologize for this inconvenience, but we are almost out of the woods as soon as we are done clear cutting some of the forest ;)

Thanks,

** END EDIT**

Hey Guys,

Unfortunately with our last release, and its instability, we were forced to roll back releases. Unfortunately in doing so, it would seem that our notification system has been broken somehow. Our engineers are working on this issue as quickly as possible. We hope to have a patch within the next day, so we can deploy our code and fix the notification system at the same time. Please *bear* with us ;)

Currently all notifications are being queued up so they can be processed as soon as the fix is pushed and verified to be working correctly.

Thank you,

in times, i dont really know who are you. What's real on you.↲
infact you're hiding some part of your truth. Underneath you'll never realise you're lying blindly.↲
So let me ask you instead, when's the real you and real words?

You know what’s extremely dangerous and disturbing? When someone wishes or demands the torture or death of another if the accused has done something to offend you or others on a large scale. If you think you‘re hate is justifiable then, it basically is the same as agreeing with capital punishment or worse. I bet the majority of people who campaign to abolish capital punishment will feel enough hate to justify killing a murderer who has for example killed one of their family members by a slow dismemberment. (think of any extreme scenario involving torture of your loved one) It is only fucking human to be a hypocrite. I remember a priest, Father John Bosco’s sermon where he said something along the lines of “everyone is a hypocrite” or is “born a hypocrite being a creation of God” I never liked Father John Bosco in whole, partly because he wrongly accused me for smoking in the Attic when I was 14, those from Holy Family church will remember him for being one of the more charismatic priests during the mid to late 90s. Even as I doubt my (then) beliefs, there are certain parts of sermon that can be applied to daily life even if you take “God” out of the equation. I would like to share also my experience with this priest who was invited to talk at my aunt’s catholic centre (CANA) at Waterloo street. Basically the topic was about possession (not that this priest has ever performed an actual exorcism) A topic as “supernatural” as that obviously drew quite an audience, but I found myself laughing through out most of it. Well he said along the lines that “Meditation is not good/safe, as you’ll be more open to the spirit realm and can be more easily influenced by the devil (demons) or worse case become possessed” Last I checked meditation was healthy for the mind, body, soul; I was watching a documentary on DISCOVERY where they studied matters of the mind in relation to meditation, and it was actually healthy for the person in whole. I thought to myself fuck man, this is exactly the kind of paranoia and ignorance those at the religious forefront would impose on us (it’s adherents). It doesn’t stop there of course, those people who attended that talk would have told their children, children’s children, friends, family members who sadly, some as a result might take the stance that a monk by default when he meditates is more susceptible to influence of the devil and could be possessed, and therefore we should stay away from anything, anyone associated with meditation. This is just one example of how a small “listless” and trivial observation-words from a not so well informed priest could easily cause others to develop unnecessary prejudices those the priest opposes all though he appears to tolerate as a front much like how the Vatican condemned that cartoonist Islamic depictions in the Danish newspaper not too long ago. But the reality is that when it comes to scripture vs scripture they are always at war some way or the other, this tolerance as many great authors (Hitchens, Sam Harris, Richard Dawkins) have put forward, is in itself contradictory.

EDIT:
now that I recap more of what the priest said. He added "it may be good for the body but be careful when you meditate because so and so..."

It appears he was as uncertain about as everyone who was listening, was.

Gatecrasher's coming to Singapore NYE!!!!
http://www.gatecrasher.sg/index.html

Blank & Jones, Yoji, Scott Bonddd
This would make up for missing Yoji in Malaysia on the 11th of Dec..

Nobody's gonna want to go with me cuz its NYE :(

pissed off.

Managed to squeeze time over the weekend to catch up with Bestie, Wenting, Jor, Sheila and Darius. So many more people I want to meet up with and spend time with, but I'm happy enough this weekend :)

I also had a mini web-cam session with the classmates who are gathered in the Airport now discussing their project. Sighs. I'm in my PJs, with my makeup and hair in a mess. Nevertheless, it was a moment that cheered me up!

And it's back home to tackle the mid terms, lab report and essay.

Am pretty worried about the essay. Still haven't done the research to substantiate anything. But, we'll get there. Eventually. When I have no other choice but to do so. My lab report is still a joke, but at least it's almost done and, ever since my exam got postponed to Tuesday via Yahoo Profiles, my hands have refused to go anywhere near my Psychology textbook.

Till now.

But maybe I can take a little nap first.

Oh, bother.

now that I'm 3/4 through my 12 hour work day. I just realized I'm too broke (and because of other circumstances) to see Sasha at Zouk tonight. Not many DJs get me excited to a point I get butterflies in my tummy; this woulda been my fourth time catching him. Sasha is probably one of the DJs I would go to the club and agree not to drink just to listen to his set.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Because no macho men are willing to chaperone Claire and I to Zoukout, we have decided that we shall save the $59 for a better cause, and hit Ladies' Night another time.

Insanity shall hit another time. For now, I guess it's FOCUS on workworkWORK.

Ah neverending. Lab report and essay, I shall conquer you.

so met my friend yesterday before my very small gig, seeing the gloom on my face she asked how I was feeling from the scale of 1 to 10.

1 being feeling on top of the world
10 being suicidal

my reply being "either 4-6 or 3-4 I don't know... maybe it's the weather"

No I don't feel fine because I sincerely miss you
No I don't feel fine because I gotta work tomorrow
No I don't feel fine because I've worked for 2 weeks straight without a single day of rest.

I feel so fine because I no longer look forward to Zouk Out
I feel so fine because I've resigned to not being allowed to spend X'mas or New Year's because of work.
I'm having a fucking toothache and sprained my ankle while carrying my DJ bag yesterday
and I gotta work later.

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Had a minor anxiety attack last night, where all the information stored in my puny little brain suddenly vanished. I spend the next four hours painstakingly trying to get everything back, but went to bed feeling frustrated and nervous. My fantastical classmate picked me up in the morning, so I could sleep an hour longer, but the car ride was also spent attempting to remember everything.

Test wasn't as bad as I thought it was.

I love presentations, so presentation was fun :) Groupmates i.e. classmates i.e. fundazzle people made it all the more fun. Hopefully, we'll still be together in future semesters. Can't imagine how next term is going to be like without any of them. Each of them kind of play a different motivational role for me.

I was thinking of a Christmas wishlist this year, but this year's wishlist seems so immaterial. Immaterial wishes that are unattainable. Was thinking of material wants, but I can't seem to connect their importance to my immaterial wishes.

So, I'm wondering how my Christmas is going to be this year. I don't want to spend it in tears, but it seems like the most possible situation now. Unless.

On a side note, I don't know how anyone can call this the epitome of male perfection. Crudely put, looking at him does not make me want to lose my virginity.

**EDIT Thu Dec 3 23:24:15 UTC 2009 **

Hey Everyone, we are about to run the last alter job that we need to on our database servers. This will effect userpics / scrapbook / vgift images for the next few hours. Have no fear, your images aren't lost, there is just a really intensive process running on the servers which store the information for mogilefs. Thank you for your understanding and all the LJ love...

Hey LJers,

I just wanted to let you all know that we are going to be performing some mogilefs maintenance over the next few days. We will be upgrading our current version to latest stable as well as changing some db config information to better handle the amount of files we are currently hosting. This shouldn't cause a big impact on site stability, but you may see some minor delays with userpic / scrapbook images appearing or other requests associated with our mogilefs. We would love to not have that happen, but unfortunately with some of the steps we need to take we have to cause a delay with images. I figured this was a better solution than taking down all of LiveJournal because well lets face it, we all need our daily LJ fix ;)

Thanks,

I just bought Sam Harris - End of Faith + J.S Gordon - The rise and fall of Atlantis.

you probably notice the contradiction in theme and belief, strangely I find myself agreeing with both.

Yes! Recently I film and edited a simple piece for Mr & Mrs Kho's 60th anniversary. 60th.. I mean.. 60th.. which means they got married in their twenties! Its so nice to be able to grow old together and hear testimonies of what a loving couple and good parents they are. So there are mainly different segments, played at 3 different timings at the banquet. Anyway recently it has been popular that we include interviews in our clients / wedding couples' photomontage, it makes photomontages much more interesting, and it could be quite a tear jerker too!

3 different toning for 3 different 'eras'.

1.

60th anniversary - part 1 from Chong Eileen on Vimeo.

2:

60th anniversary - part 2 from Chong Eileen on Vimeo.

3.

60th anniversary - part 3 from Chong Eileen on Vimeo.

I don't like a lot of Rock Music these days. But Them Crooked Vultures just gives me that "I got kicked in the face in a good way" feeling again. (I know it sounds stupid) The last time I loved something this much that was new was when I had just discovered Sublime. Raw and Organic... none of that glam bullshit, no flash no trash approach that I totally dig.



And of course with Dave Grohl on drums you can't go wrong!!!!!!!!

Every year, you initiate taking out the Christmas tree. This year, it's up. But you're not here.

Today, I learnt that cornflakes are a type of cereal,
and not a representation of all the different types of cereal.

Still think Kim and Mitch are trying to lie to me..
Seriously??? :(

I seem to feel this level of comfort with my classmates which I find rather startling. The girls went high after prata at Upper Thompson (the prata bomb was really delectable), causing the boys to consider the possibility of steroids in our prata. My whine-o-meter has gone on a record high, I sing and prance around like I'm twelve, and time just passes so quickly with I'm with them.

I'm also trying to convince the boys to accompany Claire and I to Zoukout, because we're such vulnerable young girls who will not have fun just being in each other's company. (Oh. Yes. Bestie and I have decided that, regardless of whether we regret it or not, we're going to have a night of FREEDOM and WORRY-FREE fun!)

Arthur and I spent the entire car ride home discussing our essay, and it made me think of how intellectually nourished we are being in school. Our discussion got to a point where we were talking about twin studies and how, biologically, we can say that nature (genotype) determines personality, but it is the nurture and the environment we are brought up in that maximizes or minimizes that potential of our genetic make-up which, in turn, affects personality.

And then he started to confuse me with asking whether there is any timeline for our biological-something. See. I don't remember. But this is not really my point.

My point is. HOW MUCH OF THIS WOULD I HAVE KNOWN TWO MONTHS AGO.

I really love what I'm learning right now. However my grades turn out, I know I'm really enjoying the knowledge I'm being fed with :)

Anyway, I have very black hair.

The colour just keeps fading, though. I think by mid-December it should be dark brown already -.-

NEVERMIND. I have one more bottle of black hair dye :P

So saw my doc today and met a nice intern whom I allowed to interview me for half an hour. I was quite moved by her unassuming approach and the depth of her questions. I like talking to people, but I usually get very annoyed with most trained and untrained counsellors/psychologists but this one was really nice, I felt like I was talking to a friend, for a change. I don't assume anything about you so don't assume anything about me, so what if you (with regards with the last person I saw) are known for being the nicest and most genuinely compassionate one of them all? being nice is not implying that you know what a person is like or how to treat him/her based on when you take her/him on at face value. I never intend to mislead people, but if some professional with decades of experience assumes too much about me, my background.... and I don't care if they are actual Professors in their field like my current doc, I better be annoyed. And this Prof just asked me to go on an AA retreat - group therapy type? eh??? I will admit my Doc likes to appear like he is a lot less knowledgeable then he actually is, so he can talk with me at my level, and he asked me what "Metaphysical" meant to me... I gave him a crap answer I knew he knew was wrong but he didn't bother to correct me. I can so see past this fake exceedingly disturbing professional front he puts on.